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ALBERT B. CASUGA, a Philippine-born writer, lives in Mississauga, Ontario, Canada, where he continues to write poetry, fiction, and criticism after his retirement from teaching and serving as an elected member of his region's school board. He was nominated to the Mississauga Arts Council Literary Awards in 2007. A graduate of the Royal and Pontifical University of St. Thomas (now University of Santo Tomas, Manila. Literature and English, magna cum laude), he taught English and Literature (Criticism, Theory, and Creative Writing) at the Philippines' De La Salle University and San Beda College. He has authored books of poetry, short stories, literary theory and criticism. He has won awards for his works in Canada, the U.S.A., and the Philippines. His latest work, A Theory of Echoes and Other Poems was published February 2009 by the University of Santo Tomas Publishing House. His fiction and poetry were published by online literary journals Asia Writes and Coastal Poems recently. He was a Fellow at the 1972 Silliman University Writers Workshop, Philippines. As a journalist, he worked with the United Press International and wrote an art column for the defunct Philippines Herald.

Saturday, August 31, 2013

THE DOTARD POEMS



THE DOTARD POEMS


“I an old man,/ A dull head among windy spaces./ …I have lost my passion: why should I need to keep it/ Since what is kept must be adulterated?/…Tenants of the house,/ Thoughts of a dry brain in a dry season.”---T. S. Eliot, Gerontion, 1920
 

1. HIS E-MAIL FROM SOMEWHERE

Dotard Poem #1.  Love song in his dotage. He thought he was lonely; took his IPAD and sent himself an email.

You read me lines before you left.
Love tames all that is wild, you said.

I know I am finally done with running,
but I have nowhere to go. I can’t find you.

On the G-mail, Yahoo, what have you,
I risk being exposed as a scam scumbag.

I, too, am ill, and I have nothing to leave
except palpable feelings of your touch.

I have become wealthy with these tender,
not pounds nor guineas, but all this gentle

currency that has long lost its value: Love,
love for the wild heart and the wild times.

 

2. CLOSING SWINGING DOORS


Dotard Poem #2. He told himself in a Remind Me Note on the fridge: "Forgot to forget; should have closed the door last night. Afraid will forget again tonight, and she will be back yelling. 'Shut the damn doors.' Ah, furgedabawteeet!" The dotard stayed awake all night instead. Can one close swinging doors? So, he wrote a poem to remind himself to forget what is left to forget. Okay?

There is just the urgent need now to run
quickly away from the swinging door
that will impale him needlessly to walls

closing down on him even as he spreads
his new-found wings to rise beyond all
this debris of meaning, love’s carrion,

when that is all gone, all abandoned, all
forgotten as just the drivel of cripples
who would not think of shutting doors

whence come the vultures of unfeeling
ennui, numb hearts still beating, still
blubbering about how lonely it will be

before the eager beaks have garroted
their brittle necks straining to grumble
a futile prayer that this visit is too brief.

3. GRASS ON MY BACK


Dotard Poem # 3. What was her name again? She came down the hill, I think, and all I wanted was to catch a whiff of dry sweat on her back. Damn it, if I could only remember her name, I'd write her a love poem. Or a letter. Or just an email. Facebook maybe. My hometown? On the tip of my tongue.

"La muerte no llega con la vejez, sino con el olvido."---Gabriel Garcia Marquez*

We will climb that hill again, won’t we?
There is a misplaced pagoda up there now,
a lookout we would have claimed our nook

When you were but a ticklish sweetheart
of a flirt, and I a wild-eyed swain waiting
for some summer breeze to blow your skirt

off your glistening legs moistened by heat
that became your lame excuse to giggle
as you shook my hands off your bare back:

O, they are sticky, you protested coyly then,
but when was the last time we laughed like
innocent lovers hiding from vile mongers

fearful that we could not wrap each other
into trembling arms as we rolled on grass
under the ancient acacia guarding the hill?

*Death does not arrive with old age, but with oblivion.
 

4. DRUTHERS
 

Dotard Poem #4. There was a time I could write any borracho under the table, I mean drink under the bridge. Is that the bromide? But whatever for? I cannot recall how and when I wrote this note on a rough, brown paper bag of music and a pack of metaphors. Did I say music? Meta…what? Oh, I meant a pack of brew. Give it all back. Return them to senders. I am done.


(Or Send Back to Sender)

If he had his druthers, he’d rather not be given:
too little time for too much to give back on.
A keen eye to see both sides of a magic coin?
Be a magistrate then, look for the right and just.
Or a poet who sees both sides of a wall. Or mirror.
Why not a jihadist who slays both good and evil
for a master who will not see any evil or any good?

And snow now melts faster than it could fall?
What ever for? He’d rather flakes all blew back
to whatever skies they’ve fallen from, too late
anyway for the grandkids who prayed as hard
as the grumbling Imam now hoarse with his
praying at the muezzin. What’s a hillock for
if it is not snowbound for their tobogganing?

He will not suffer the little ones to miss their
winter sleigh. On the other hand, this could be
a wayward winter storm giving back a late wallop
for having been given a welter of clouds and a clash
of heat and cold. Someone sent him a throne of words:
he built cathedrals of thought no one understood.

It’s poetry, mon ami! He said it’s worth a shrug.
Like cold tea.


5. SILENCE: A NOISY FINITUDE

Dotard Poem #5. This is the way my world ends, not with a bang but with a silence, a whimper calling attention to a noisy finitude. Tata, for now, but I shan't forget to forget those whose time has come to walk out the door. Closing the windows and doors now. If only I could find the locks.

This is the way the world ends/Not with a bang but a whimper. ---From “The Hollow Men” by T.S. Eliot

By sundown, they will be gone, like long shadows
on my porch walls. All the fierce singing done,
what remains is the quiet murmur of the bourn.
Its stream will not return, nor will the swallows.

But while they flitted from tree tops to broken
perches, did they not cry out their bravest songs?
These are our elm trees, these are our willows,
we pieced our homes here together, we roosted.

At the bluffs, we find the woods edge muted now.
Soon, even the cackling gulls will dive a final swoon,
catch the last crayfish lost on boulders left bare
by ebbing tide that must also leave its quiet shore.

It is troths like these that will not last, nothing
endures. The silence can only become a whimper,
the roar riding on the waning wind, a stifled bang
calling attention to a lonely end of a noisy finitude.



---ALBERT B. CASUGA
Mississauga, August 31, 2013
 
 


 

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Friday, August 30, 2013

SILENCE: A NOISY FINITUDE


 
SILENCE: A NOISY FINITUDE

This is the way the world ends/Not with a bang but a whimper. ---From “The Hollow Men” by T.S. Eliot

By sundown, they will be gone, like long shadows
on my porch walls. All the fierce singing done,
what remains is the quiet murmur of the bourn.
Its stream will not return, nor will the swallows.

But while they flitted from tree tops to broken
perches, did they not cry out their bravest songs?
These are our elm trees, these are our willows,
we pieced our homes here together, we roosted.

At the bluffs, we find the woods edge muted now.
Soon, even the cackling gulls will dive a final swoon,
catch the last crayfish lost on boulders left bare
by ebbing tide that must also leave its quiet shore.

It is troths like these that will not last, nothing
endures. The silence can only become a whimper,
the roar riding on the waning wind, a stifled bang
calling attention to a lonely end of a noisy finitude.

---ALBERT B. CASUGA

Mississauga, August 30, 2013

Thursday, August 29, 2013

DRUTHERS

   


Dotard Poem 4.  There was a time I could write any borracho under the table, I mean drink under the bridge. Is that the bromide? But whatever for? I cannot recall how and when I wrote this note on a rough, brown paper bag of music and a pack of metaphors. Did I say music? Meta…what? Oh, I meant a pack of brew. Give it all back. Return them to senders. I am done.
 
DRUTHERS
 
(Or Send Back to Sender)

If he had his druthers, he’d rather not be given:
too little time for too much to give back on.
A keen eye to see both sides of a magic coin?
Be a magistrate then, look for the right and just.
Or a poet who sees both sides of a wall. Or mirror.
Why not a jihadist who slays both good and evil
for a master who will not see any evil in any good?

And snow now melting faster than it could fall?
What ever for? He’d rather they all blew back
to whatever skies they’ve fallen from, too late
anyway for the grandkids who prayed as hard
as the grumbling Imam now hoarse with his
praying at the muezzin. What’s a hillock for
if it is not snowbound for their tobogganing?

He will not suffer the little ones to miss their
winter sleigh. On the other hand, this could be
a wayward winter storm giving back a late wallop
for having been given a welter of clouds and a clash
of heat and cold. Someone sent him a throne of words:
he built cathedrals of thought no one understood.
It’s poetry, mon ami! He said it’s worth a shrug,
like cold tea.

—ALBERT B. CASUGA

Mississauga, August 29, 2013
 

Sunday, August 25, 2013

GOT YOU COVERED: A PARABLE ON THE SAND


Photo of Marie Clementine Casuga-Lalonde by Adele Casuga at Sauble Beach
 
 
GOT YOU COVERED: A PARABLE ON THE SAND
 

Soon, you just know, you’d cover the hole. Oh?
There was one other man, a saint of a dotard
Though, who chided a little lass much like you,
“Wee one, why are you pouring each little cup
From the sea into your small hole in the sand?”

Askance, she glanced at his worn friar sandals,
Looked coyly into his dark wizened face, his eyes
Burning with the sundown’s flame of colours,
Then muttered (like a mother upbraiding a son
Who climbed a dying oak tree to snatch a nest
He said he must save lest the unhatched eggs
Break before their time, but was told: Do not!):

“Wise, Sir, Good, Sir, I must empty this sea
Into this shore that Father might be spared time
Casting his ragged net to catch a meal Mother,
Sister, and Brother have piled stones for a stove
To cook on, before we leave for the town yonder
To bring offerings, fish and beans, to the temple.”

“But the ocean is just so vast, my innocent child,”
He hastened to say in the mien of most old men
Rather impatient about youthful impertinence,
“You will never in your lifetime ever empty a sea
Of its stream, nor could brave Noah in his Ark,
Not even when God sent that dove and rainbow.”

She stood up then, wrapping her windblown skirt
Around her spindly legs, and whispered to the wind:
“Nor could you, in your learned and entire lifetime,
Know why there must be a Father who sends a Son
With only a Fiery Spirit to spread Love and be killed.”

As you break into what abuelo calls your sonrisa
De los angeles, sonrisa de hermosura, sonrisa bella,
Hija, mia,*” you must be murmuring to the wind
Caressing you at Sauble: “I shall cover every hole,
Da-da, where you could stumble. Got you covered.”
 

---ALBERT B. CASUGA

Mississauga, August 25, 2013

 
*…sonrisa de los angeles,  , sonrisa de hermosura, sonrisa bella , hija mia…” (Trans: angel’s smile, smile of beauty, lovely smile, my little girl…”)
 


 
 
Photo of the Lalonde siblings romping in the sea by Adele Casuga


 
 

Friday, August 23, 2013

THE IMAM'S PRAYER




THE IMAM'S PRAYER

(For the Syrian Children Killed by Chemical Bombs)

Insha Allah,
 
my dear child, you will leave us pure
with a free heart; you perished in gaols
of hatred, unsated anger crying havoc
on all that must remain in this temple:
it will not crumble though madmen
crush them in the name of Country,
and Allah, in the name of all infants
slaughtered as lambs, innocents
paying ransom for the lost souls
of these jackals of doom, vile butchers
who would rather slit their throats
to shed tainted blood for Great Allah
than intone with the muezzin at dusk:

Allahu Akhbar                
Allahu Akhbar.
Allahu Akhbar.

---Albert B. Casuga
August 23, 2013, Mississauga

 


 

Thursday, August 22, 2013

LOOKING FOR LOST SEA SHELLS


 
 
LOOKING FOR LOST SEA SHELLS

(For Cloclo, Loulou, and Momo)

1.  At the Flowerpot Island

It was strange while they gawked at it:
A wall fencing the sea in as moat manqué,
Or is it a battle bastion cutting land off
Where the meadows met with the mist
Cloaking this hunting ground at sunrise?

Did cannons roar atop these lime stones
When, in stealth, tall ships sought shelter
From the roaring waterspout howlers,
Leeward wind that kept even the brave
In their teepees and the hunted in lairs?

Are sundown tales of weeping mothers
Clutching their limp, bloodied infants
Slumber stories here, like roaming ghosts
Peeking into tents watching the wee ones
Snuggle deep into a mother’s embrace?

Did the dogs of war prowl these shores
Some time when God, grain, and gold
Were chattel peddled, if not coveted,
By conquering intruders from beyond
Who decreed suns never set in empires?

2. Looking for Seashells

There is nothing in that crevice or cranny,
Little one, you will not find lost sea shells
Buried there; they have been reclaimed
By the sea, like a mother who will not trust
Anyone who slays children in their sleep.

Elsewhere, while you dream of waterslides
And moonlit beaches, sand caves, sunsets,
And laughter among the dunes of Sauble,
Lads and lasses, mothers and fathers, too,
Shall not wake up to another misty morning.

Before bedtime, after another sundown ,
My wee ones, look long and hard at the sea,
Ask her gently to lend back some sea shells.
You will return with bright flowers in them.

 
---ALBERT B. CASUGA
August 22, 2013, Mississauga

 
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Wednesday, August 21, 2013

HUMMINGBIRD DREAMS



HUMMINGBIRD DREAMS


(For Marie Clementine at Sauble Beach)
 

Before long, the lullaby of the ebbtide
Would have lulled her, and the sundown
Swoon of the seagulls diving leeward
Becomes sights and sounds of another day.

Eventide catches her cuddling her doll,
Dancing on the sand all done for now:
“Goodnight, little stars, in the blanket sky,
Be good, be bright, be my light by-and-by.”
 
She wraps her ragdoll into a threadbare
Shawl left loose on a bare sunburnt back.
“Goodbye, sea, goodbye, sun, goodbye, all,
Let me sing our song until sleep shall call.”
 
She will not walk by moonlight, starlight
Being her appointed fireflies, like campfire
Fairies flitting from folded flowers to fire,
Quietly singing like little hummingbirds.


---Albert B. Casuga
August 21, 2013, Mississauga

 

 
 Photo by Adele Casuga

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

LITTLE SHADOWS AT SUNDOWN


 
 
LITTLE SHADOWS AT SUNDOWN

(For the Wee Ones at Sauble Beach)

 
There is where here is:
Do you hear the murmur
Of the seawaves laving this shore?
It is the whispered caress of a mother
Come upon her little ones’ romp
Among the sundown shadows.
Where the flushed horizon
Meets the sea, a father’s
Face gleams ruddy
With laughter’s heat
Still on his crinkled brow.

O, that this cacophony of sounds
Becomes the noise of a lifetime
This heart (from a distance)
Could hearken to, leap up to,
Velvety notes of a joie de vivre
That this place was built for,
Made of, remembered by:

Is this not, after all, the paradise
He thought was lost in time past
Visited now upon his dotage
When he hankers for joy,
A little life left while there is time?

The little shadows taunt the sea
To reach their limbs. Gleeful,
Their now surprised screams,
When touched at last, are drowned
By whimper of the ebbtide waves
That has turned to gentle laughter.
 

---ALBERT B. CASUGA

August 20, 2013, Mississauga

  


Monday, August 19, 2013

DESERT ANGELUS

 
DESERT ANGELUS

1. Prayer

Wish this upon that wasted waif
reaching for a cob of corn on a cold
night among the lean-to shelters.
 
Pray for this as hard as you can
before the scorching desert claims
his little body back among debris
 
of sticks, stones, and bones dimly lit
by fluttering fire from stoked ember,
frying the flies gleaned from holes
 
hiding them in the crannies of boxes
left by a howling army of thieves
absconding with the relief supply.

2. Biscuit in the Sky
 
A border guard sips freshly brewed
coffee from his tin cup, cocks his
rifle at its ready-to-fire 45-degree,
 
sneers at the child’s shaking body
in the arms of a tremblingly bony
hand of its mother begging for tea
 
or a tad of coffee, a balm for a cold
night at the gobi, where a half-moon
floats like a half-eaten biscuit in the sky.

---Albert B. Casuga
 


 

 

Sunday, August 18, 2013

DOORS: HERE, THERE, NEXT DOOR, OR ELSEWHERE


Photo by Melissa Datuin Nolledo, Cover Photo FB


DOORS:  HERE, THERE,
NEXT DOOR, OR ELSEWHERE


Cierra algunas puertas. No por orgullo, ni soberbia, sino no porque ya no llevan a ninguna parte (Close some doors, not because of pride, nor arrogance, but because they no longer lead to anywhere. )---Paulo Coelho.


1. Closing Doors

How many more doors must he close
before he would know when stillness
has finally found its way to his door?

Doors swivel here and would not stop,
even for the doorman who grumbles
at how endless passages take, rotates

at the touch of dainty hands, the push
of gnarled palms, thrust of a bunioned
foot, or the dithering hold of an arm

by the lover who would rather he had
stayed when going ended up nowhere
anyway, and she merely stifled a plea

for him to stay; but he dreaded staying
because all wanting has finally died,
fervent desires wrinkled on the sheets.

2. Caution: Swinging Doors

There is just the urgent need now to run
quickly away from the swinging door
that will impale him needlessly to walls

closing down on him even as he spreads
his new-found wings to rise beyond all
this debris of meaning, love’s carrion,

when that is all gone, all abandoned, all
forgotten as just the drivel of cripples
who would not think of shutting doors

whence come the vultures of unfeeling
ennui, numb hearts still beating, still
blubbering about how lonely it will be

before the eager beaks have garroted
their brittle necks straining to grumble
a futile prayer that this visit is too brief.

3.  Last Door: Too brief

to even know how to close that last door
when the rainstorms have blown off lids
to protect him when he pleaded to go on?

Too late, he could not stem the rapid swivel
of a door, rotating inexorably to crush him
when he could have eked out and be free.

There is just the final question: Is he free

at last, this door having failed to swing back?

4. Some Answers Next Door

There must be a little door
that will not end in a room.
Space is all. Is there an end
to these rooms? An exit
into a free space all his own?

He requires a room-less door
to step out of when leaving
would finally mean being
unbound, no walls to fence him
in, no house to shackle a home.

For what would a sky be for?
Why would suns set over hills?
Suns rise from the edge of seas?
Why do springs expand to falls?
Why is beauty its own excuse?

Whence come this splendour?
What does it mean for a flower
to bloom? When all questions
have been answered, where
ends he whose end is a question?

Or are answers simply next door?

---ALBERT B. CASUGA
 


 

Saturday, August 17, 2013

OCCUPYING THE GARDEN: QUESTIONS AND AN ANSWER


 
 
OCCUPYING THE GARDEN:
QUESTIONS AND AN ANSWER


Old Question: Where is Abel, your brother, Cain? New Answer: Am I My Brother's Keeper? A Shot in the Dark: Perhaps, you were made for the Other. Am I?

"Der Mensch wird am Du zum Ich" (Through the Thou a person becomes I.)---Martin Buber, Ich und Du (1923) in Werke (1962) vol 1, pg. 97.


1.  Who Goes There?

What if this place were made only for the other?
You are yourself, but you are also others’ other.

Were you conceived for yourself, or for a specie?
Someone must extend the process of evolution.

Your first act out of the womb was to let out a cry.
Was it not to alert the birthing other you’re here?

And you will bring joy to a union forged in dreams,
but you could always be the unwanted obligation.

What if you were the inevitable happenstance
come from the aches of groin and gravid reasons?

Are you an issue of love or lust? An afterthought?
When did you start to even aspire to be yourself?


2. A Place: From a  Pauper Space

Dare you grow then to even ask: What do I want?
What do I need? Selfish angst? No. Must-ask ones.

One cannot give what one does not have, operatio
sequitur esse. Find and feed your hunger to know

what you are here for. Are you a brother’s keeper?
Or does a lover keep you? Either way, a hunger.

If you were for the other, you must be provident;
but fill your tills first before giving a ruddy cent.

Is your neighbour the village thief? Love him.
Clothe the naked, as you would with a fig leaf.

Before long, you would have guessed how little
you are without the other, and learn to whistle

in the dark, and wait, and build, and gather
behind walls, until, one on top of the other,

you begin to climb beyond your pauper space
to occupy a lost garden, a haven, as your place.

---Albert B. Casuga

Friday, August 16, 2013

THREE POEMS ON PAINTING RUINS


 
 
THREE POEMS ON PAINTING RUINS

1.  A Riot of Ruins

That I might smell, that I might see:
was a measure of how good my painting
would have to be before I kept or framed
it for a ready gift I did not need to wrap,

or before I burned it with leftover oil like
the posturing madman I was more often
than not, when scented chiaroscuro was
a poem’s altered form as long stretches
of babbling Babel plagued my wordhouse.

“A dab of sienna would be mouldering
leaves, a worm’s dark squiggle in the dirt,”
a shadow of a bird on rotting barn roof,
bundled twigs left askew on burnt grass:
always, always a riot of ruins on canvas.

2. Ruins, Woeful Vanishings

Why would the stump of a crumpled bell
tower find itself the fulcrum of colour
pasted, splashed, whirled into whorls
of pastel fading into a stray of gossamer
at the bastidor’s edges? How does it smell?

Dark. Dark. Like a gaping eyeless socket,
the belfry where the bell hung is empty
save for a blackened rope whipped by wind
that must have driven the bats that have
long absconded, leaving their putrid dung.

Dread. Dread. Like the threat of volcanic
mayhem, seen now from a distance
of quite hues, a shadow upon a shadow,
a hurt poised by razor-edged memories
of other ruins, other woeful vanishings.

3.  Ruins of Ruins

On the tip of my ashen grey is sulphuric
stench that would always be redolent
of lacerating betrayals, carrion of love’s
cadavers forever embalmed, forever
alive, forever recent, endlessly rising
from ruins of ruins flooding my senses.

--- ALBERT B. CASUGA